Pause, reboot, recharge


As days transition into nights and nights slide into days, we're running out of things to do. But this time is precious, right.

That's why I got off that big chair in front of my PC and do something constructive with my life. That would at least help me deal with anxiety about the future.

Writing has always been my passion so this blog is helping me discover myself as a person. And while I'm not an artist even in the wildest sense, I've enrolled into an online illustration course, which I am really excited about.

Today being the first day, I have been learning how to deal with animal anatomy. I am also learning a bit about human anatomy. Although the teacher has asked us to be free in our ideas and not conform to anything in the real world, I don't do too well without structure. Hence am building my basic skill sets on the side, which my peers have already mastered.

My son has suddenly discovered the joys of cooking. He tried his hands at noodles today and I am so proud. He also made a chocolate cake out of biscuits today, which was yumm. God knows, for how long I have been wanting to make sure that my boys can cook, and maybe take to it as a hobby. Maybe in time that too will happen, because I come from a family of men who absolutely love cooking.

Under the surface, there are many more things that I am changing. Am changing my beliefs about food. Am more optimistic than ever that this time I will lose weight. But at the same time, I am not obsessed with it.

Lots of hopes and dreams are going to come true- my feelings tell me so. On that positive note, I'm taking a break from my obsession with making my business grow to the level that I have in my heart for it. I think it will happen in time, I'll put in the hours and the sweat but not the stress.

So much for constructiveness.



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